Month: November 2014

my book wishlist is out of control

It’s nearing a thousand. Every time I read a review that looks positive or some of the bloggers I trust say something positive about a book, I put it on my wishlist. Every time someone mentions Oh, you should read this book to me, I put it on my list. Every time I see a cover I like, I put it on my list.

There is no way I am going to read all these books ever. There isn’t time. Well, there is time if all I want to do is focus on reading and give up the writing dream (an idea I’ve been mulling over lately as I slouch into winter with no acceptances coming my way). If I turn off the Internet and read every second of the day, I’ll get through them all. And if I don’t add any more books to it. And I ignore the rest of my life.

I wonder what would happen if I simply delete my wishlist. If I didn’t feel compelled the tell myself I should read this book. What would happen? Would I be more free if I simply let these books fade away?

I also think I need some more writer friends. I have an online writing group and they are my writing friends, but I’d like more. I will search some out and ask them what to do about my wishlist. Maybe someone else will know because really, when I look into myself, all I really want is for someone wiser and better than me to tell me what I should be doing next.

looking positively at books

In an attempt to hack my mood, let’s make a list of ten books I’m excited to read over the next few months.

  • Amy Poehler wrote a book and so I have to have to have to read it. If I don’t read it, I may just cease to exist. I think I need to stress this again: Amy Poehler, with whom I would love to be friends with for now and for always, wrote a book. Amy Poehler, who is one of the greatest things to ever happen to anybody ever.

    Status: Purchased, on kobo, ready to read as a reward to myself when I get all my work done.


  • Ever have a book you haven’t read yet but just know that you and it will get along? This is that book for me.

    Status: Haven’t purchased it and not in public library. From a small US press, but I think there’s been a recent ebook release, so I should be able to get my hands on that somehow.



  • After my disgust with another written-in-french mystery novel, I have higher hopes for this one.

    Status: Only the original French version is in the library, so need to find myself an English copy somewhere.





  • I’m hoping for just the right amount of quirk in this book. Just the right amount.

    Status: On hold at the library (35 on 6 copies).







  • I have a feeling this will creepy me right out, maybe even disgust me, but with that frisson of feeling that you have to stay up all night to finish it.

    Status: The library’s only copy is in braille, so I’m going to have to look elsewhere.




  • A long time ago, I read Behind the Scenes at the Museum and then swore of Kate Atkinson forever, because how could anything top Behind the Scenes at the Museum? I have since re-adjusted my views. Maybe nothing can top Behind the Scenes at the Museum, but, similarly, nothing can top Kate Atkinson. So now I’ve read all the Jackson Brodie books and Life After Life, and am catching up on the back catalogue.

    Status: I have a hard-copy that I bought at Fair’s Fair in Calgary oddly during my Kate Atkinson boycot, so I must have known, even then that I would eventually crack.


  • I put this book on hold at the library when we lived in Halifax. After nine months they said the book was lost and they weren’t buying a new one. I moved to Calgary and put the book on hold in Calgary. About a year later, it came in, the same day we moved from Calgary to Ottawa. So I now owe the $2 fine or whatever it is for putting a book on hold at the Calgary library and then not picking it up (actually, we also accidentally stole a Wiggles DVD as well, so remind me never to move back to Calgary and try to get a library card). Ottawa: not in the public library at all. Finally, finally, it is in the New Brunswick library.

    After all the wait, I know I’m going to be disappointed.

    Status: On hold at the library (1 on 1 copy).


  • The Cellar by Minette Walters: No picture, the book isn’t out yet. Yay British mystery novels though!

    Status: Not yet published.


  • Another not out yet book (but with a cover this time). Tesfa calls these books the Delphine books as we read them together. Likely they go over her head, some of the content, but I don’t care. Better to read this than have to suffer through another Geronimo Stilton book.

    Status: Not yet published.




Hmmm. I can only think of nine and I’ve grown tired of this exercise. Besides, I have books I have to read carefully before I give them to other people as presents. I’m not the only one who does that, am I? My grandmother used to do that too, so I know I’m not alone.

Oh Why Lemony Snicket, why?

So Lemony Snicket made a racist joke and then apologized for it. Not impressed because I seriously like Lemony Snicket. I really love Unfortunate Events and now, I feel wrong about sharing them with Tesfa. I know he apologized, but still, he could have just not said racist stuff in the first place.

My hold-list at the library is full (seriously, only ten books? That fills up fast), but I’ll be putting a bunch of diverse books on hold for Tesfa and I to explore together to counter my bad feelings around Lemony Snicket. Only have to wait a few more months until the next Delphine book, as Tesfa calls them, comes out too.

I wrote a story while the house roared around me

Recognizing that the likelihood of me having all the quiet free, time I need stretching out in front of me, uninterrupted, is nil, I put it to myself to write today and yesterday with life going on. A playdate, MLP:FiM, Arsenal vs Manchester United, low-grade cats fighting in the background, and I wrote a story about buying a Chagall. So, obviously it is about rich people, but it’s also in the Kawarthas, and it’s short so hopefully no one will notice all the mistakes since I am neither rich nor living in the Kawarthas.

I think I’d like to live in the Kawarthas some day. Then I could write about them all the time.

On to typing and proofreading. The worst parts.

Review of Collected Stories by Frank O’Connor

Okay.

These are the big guns.

Seven hundred and fifty-one pages of Frank O’Connor.

And loving every minute of it.

So I love Frank O’Connor. He wrote my favourite short story that I read in my teens (My Oedipus Complex) and my favourite short story I read in my twenties (Guests of the Nation) (fun and embarrassing meghan-fact: I did not realize it was the same Frank O’Connor who wrote both these stories until I was, maybe, 26). On more than one occasion, I’ve lamented that they don’t teach Frank O’Connor much in school (maybe they do in Ireland, but not here in Canada). Instead, I had five years of our short-story English component being The Secret Life of Walter Mitty by James Thurber and All Summer in a Day by Ray Bradbury (they couldn’t even find the same two Canadian short stories for us to read from grades seven through eleven).

So I love Frank O’Connor. I know that the previous paragraph also started that sentence, but I do. He has stories that don’t have a plot and they work. He has stories that are heavy with back story that’s never revealed and they work. He has stories with the artifice of a narrator telling a story about someone telling a story and they work. He has a story about a lion tamer, in Ireland, in this collection and it works. You can read Frank O’Connor and see that you can strip so much away and still have something amazing. You can also read Frank O’Connor and see a story that, if I were to write it, would collapse under all the strain, the history, the religion, the family, the expectations, but his stories don’t. They soar. They are funny, in a desperate, despairing way. They are sad in a way that makes one smile. I think it bears repeating: so I love Frank O’Connor. I mean, how can you not love someone who:

was always a great believer in buttered toast.

This sounds harsh, but I think it’s true: If you are a short fiction writer and you knowingly haven’t read Frank O’Connor, then there may be something wrong with you.

Still, loving Frank O’Connor is not without its difficulties. He’s a product of a time and locale. He uses the word Jew as a pejorative and Oriental as a description. Both those, at least in this collection, aren’t frequent. What is frequent is that women are generally secondary, and there are times when the comments on or depictions of women just skirt the line of misogyny. I’d like to think O’Connor is just being accurate regarding the treatment of women in such a staunch Catholic setting, but reading O’Connor, I’ve never really been able to shake the feeling that he can’t imagine how frustrating it would have been for so many of these women, treated like second-class citizens and expected to be baby machines, like his imagination just cannot imagine something like that.

As for this collection, it’s a bit baffling if one is looking for background. I have another collection of Frank O’Connor stories (Vintage’s Stories by Frank O’Connor) where Frank O’Connor himself tells you why he chose the stories he did. But in this collection, there is no introduction or essay at the end saying why these stories were picked. It’s called Collected Works, but not every Frank O’Connor story is there, and the publisher is actually pedaling three other Frank O’Connor collections as well. Is there overlap between these collections? Are there links between them? In the collection I read, characters tend to reappear, certain priests, certain families; are all occurrences of, say Father Ring, in the collection I just read, or does he appear in other collections as well? Other than reading the other collections, I have no idea. I find it odd (I’d like to say disrespectful, this is Frank O’Connor we’re talking about here! Does the publisher not know that I love him?) that they couldn’t find anyone willing to write an intro to Frank O’Connor, to say why these stories were chosen, and maybe why others were left out. That’s pretty much the only negative I have to say about this collection, and, of course, it has nothing to do with Frank O’Connor himself.

Again, I love Frank O’Connor. I read him and I feel closer to some of my family, who were a big Irish Catholic brood. Most immigrated to Canada generations ago, but there are still echoes of their behaviour in these stories. And maybe that’s why I love Frank O’Connor when on paper (ha! writing pun!) one wouldn’t think so; I’ve complained about male-view stories enough that perhaps my love of Frank O’Connor seems a bit mystifying. But you can’t deny good writing. You can’t deny that Frank O’Connor loves all his characters, even the despicable ones like Jeremiah Donovan. Each character is like a universe to him-(or her, rarely)-self. Just like people. Just like life.

Collected Stories by Frank O’Connor went on sale August 12, 2014, but the I think it may be a reissue of a collection from 1981, and the stories within have publication dates spanning from 1931 to 1965.

I received a copy free from Netgalley in exchange for an honest review.

I also apologize to Tesfa and Geoff who are going to have to listen to me saying begor and wisha for the next few weeks until I get it out of my system.

I/he/she saw

(I’m guilty of this too, so if you ever see me doing it in my fiction, make sure you tell me!)

I keep reading stories where the protagonist sees things. Okay, yes, assuming generally decent eyesight, we all see things, so please stop telling me that the protagonist sees things unless you want to draw attention to the act of seeing rather than what is being seen. Isn’t there a whole page in Burroway about that? Like one doesn’t need to write Jane watched the cars keep driving by outside the window if we have spent the last page in Jane’s head and if one writes The cars kept driving by outside the window we’ll understand that it is Jane seeing it as she is the protagonist.

Three things I’ve read today have this. Uggg. I am annoyed, pretty much like usual.

Review of Mrs Stevens Hears The Mermaids Singing by May Sarton

Do you really think it is impossible for a woman and a writer to lead a normal life as a woman?

I live in a small town that I moved to two years ago. I’m not the friendliest person and I work at home, by myself. Some mornings, some afternoons, I fall into the trap of thinking that no one experienced this, that all my struggling with family and motherhood and solitude and attempts at writing are somehow new and unique. It can be a bit of a kick in the gut to have it pointed out the exact opposite: other women have thought about what I think about now. Other women have written their thoughts down on it. I’m hardly alone; I just have to reach out.

So we have Mrs Stevens Hears The Mermaids Singing. During an interview, an author reflects on her books, her life, her loves (male and female), the Muse (female). She reflects on the difference between solitude (a good thing) and loneliness (a bad one). She befriends a college student smarting from his first gay encounter. It takes place over two days. In one sense, even written in 1965, stands up today. Dateless: authors still write, struggle to find the Muse, get married, break-up, and women still try to have-it-all. In another sense, it’s a book about feminism without the benefit of second-wave feminism, and there’s a datedness in the assumptions of what roles women can play. There’s a datedness in Mrs Stevens’ recollections of her gadabout twenties and thirties, floating around Europe, one would assume wearing trousers and having gin fizzes and charleston dancing. It takes more imagination to relate to that.

The introduction, written by Carolyn G. Heilbrun (who the Internet tells me is an American Feminist Academic), mentions that the writing does not match the depth of the ideas. Maybe I wouldn’t have noticed it if it hadn’t been said, but then, once read, that was all I could notice. The novel’s beginning is a cliché: Mrs Stevens waking up and thinking about what she’s going to do that day. Metaphors are obvious. The whole book is plagued with measles or chickenpox or something that makes there be “…”‘s on each page (oh, how I despise ellipses unless they are being used as in a mathematical statement, i.e. $$x_1, x_2, \ldots, x_n$$). People talk in a way that never feels natural to me, but I wasn’t alive in the 1960s and maybe that was how upper-class-type people spoke. The dialogue reminded me of watching The Prime of Miss Jean Brodie when I was only six or seven, where, at least to a six year old; there’s that sort of affectation to the speech that distances the viewer/reader. You have to look past that, the introduction suggests. Look past that and see what’s underneath.

And so, what did this book tell me? Can I write while female and still have a normal female life? Mrs Stevens didn’t, but tells one of her interviewers she can try. She can hope. Maybe I can too, provided I “[fight] my war to get to [my] desk before [my] little bundle of energy has been dissipated.”

(This review brought to you while Geoff entertains Tesfa in the basement with Dragon Quest VIII on the PS2, so maybe it’s less impossible to combine all this than it may seem.)

This reissue of Mrs Stevens Hears The Mermaids Singing by May Sarton went on sale July 22nd, 2014, but the book was originally published in 1965.

I received a copy free from Netgalley in exchange for an honest review.

Next Classics Clubs – Non Fiction

Going to go for non-fiction in the Classics Club this time, since I don’t read too much non-fiction.

  1. The Jungle by Upton Sinclair
  2. Eichmann in Jerusalem by Hannah Arendt
  3. Bury My Heart at Wounded Knee by Dee Brown
  4. The Gulag Archipelago by Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn
  5. A Brief History of Time by Stephen Hawking
  6. Confessions by Jean-Jacques Rousseau
  7. All The President’s Men by Carl Bernstein and Bob Woodward
  8. Survival in Auschwitz by Primo Levi
  9. The Autobiography of Alice B. Toklas by Gertrude Stein
  10. The People’s History of the United States by Howard Zinn
  11. Backlash by Susan Faludi
  12. Sister Outsider by Audre Lord
  13. Notes of a Native Son by James Baldwin
  14. A Supposedly Fun Thing I’ll Never Do Again by David Foster Wallace
  15. Silent Spring by Rachel Carson
  16. Confessions of an English Opium Eater by Thomas De Quincey
  17. Goodbye To All That by Robert Graves
  18. The Man Died by Wole Soyinka
  19. The Golden Bough by James Charles Frazer
  20. Slouching Towards Bethlehem by Joan Didion

This was hard. I’m not great with non-fiction and I don’t have the mind for anything too philosophical. So we’ll see. Let’s hope the odds are ever in my favour and the random number generator will give me a book that I’ll enjoy reading.

Review of A Calculated Life by Anne Charnock

What’s the difference between a book being classified as literary and a book classified as genre? What makes me consider Never Let Me Go, for example, literary while I place A Calculated Life firmly in the sci-fi/dystopia genre pile? Of course, a slight variation of this question is central to both novels: what makes one human versus some sort of copy? What is real versus what is cloned (although A Calculated Life is quite clear that Jayna is not a clone, she is a simulant)?

So why is this a genre book, other than the publisher telling me it is? There are ellipses everywhere. There is over-explaining of day-to-day minutiae that hardly needs to be explained, i.e. take this musing on dreams:

…a dream that served, as ever to purge, shuffle, and juxtapose the day’s events, before spewing crazed stories that, surely, she could never have imagined in waking hours.

Yes, you mean like a dream, that thing that happens to the majority of the population when they are asleep? Explanation not necessary. And the simulants, when they are speaking to each other, talk like stilted robots, which are kind of what they are, but I don’t want to read stilted robot talk. There is only one instance where I am interested in stilted robot talk and that involves Flight of the Conchords, not as dialogue in a book.

But then, there are also all the little touches that make me feel happy. Jayna works in a building named after Rear Admiral Grace Hopper (when Tesfa inevitably has to do that grade school project on a scientist, I’ve told her she has the choice of Ada Lovelace or Grace Hopper). Jayna has an analytic brain, great at math (well, statistics, but we’ll pretend math), and is often mystified by people around her, feeling left out and alone – just like me! And the book has an idea for the greatest children’s invention ever: a marker that changes colour when shaken.

But (another but) the book doesn’t have enough emotion in it. I read it and kept thinking how much more heartrending the clones struggle in Never Let Me Go was compared with the simulants’ struggle here. But that’s the struggle, almost the purpose of Charnock’s book (both books actually): how to make humans care about almost or quasi humans? Interestingly, the bionics (humans with some sort of robotic or computer implant; it isn’t explained in detail) seem more distanced from the simulants than the organics (unmodified humans that aren’t simulants). Charnock tries to explain this by invoking class and the juxtaposition of the airy suburban life of the bionics versus the hard-scraggle tower-block life of the organics, but then it’s dropped without any in depth examination. That’s another mark against A Calculated Life: Jayna examines. Most of the book is observation, and when she does act, especially near the end, it doesn’t work out necessarily the way she wants – although, having written that, now I’m thinking that maybe it’s a sort of parallel to 1984 when Winston is finally reprogrammed. Or maybe I’m reading too much into it.

I don’t read much sci-fi, so it’s nice when I read one that annoys me here and there rather than making me want to find the author and strangle him (I’ll use him here because the majority of sci-fi authors I feel like strangling are men). There will likely be sequels to this book. This book was a quick read, and I’m guessing the sequels will be as well. There’s about a 45% chance I’ll read the sequels, or at least, synopses of them to see what happens next. But I just can’t help feeling how much stronger this book was if it was a first-person narrative, like the Sonmi chapters in Cloud Atlas. That reminds me that once I tried to write a story from the point-of-view of a clone/replicant/something like that. Maybe I should dig that story up and have a go at it so I get an idea of hard it is really is to do what Charnock tried to do here.

A Calculated Life by Anne Charnock went on sale September 24th, 2013.

I received a copy free from Netgalley in exchange for an honest review.